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This weekend….is over.  I did a lot of things and a lot of nothing but I rarely got a chance to read and I barely got a chance to spend any time with my husband.  I wrote the two papers I had to write.  I even took a hot bath or two.  We (the man and I) hung a lot of the pictures that have just been lying around the house.  There’s still more to hang.  Oh well.

He cut the grass in the back and front yards.  I took my car to the carwash.  It looks love bug free now.

This week is going to be crazy.  And while I managed to relax, watch “Little Children” the movie (would suck if you haven’t read the book) drink lots of lattes and enjoy myself….the impending not knowing of the health issues…they were there in the back of my mind all weekend.  Suckage.  The not knowing and yet knowing I must go through another D&C, miss a day of work to do so…it all sucks.  Sucks.  And I keep saying “it’ll be better when…” and completing it with other words….the reality is life is life and I’m truly trying to learn to live in the now.  But right now…I’m nervous.

I did manage to take a nice bath, read a new book and drink a glass of my favorite wine.