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My eggs are not old.  I do not ovulate.  I could go on fertility drugs but he will be flunking his test because of something he did.  Not because of “bad luck” or “meant to be” or “gods plan” or any other reason.  He will have low sperm motility because of his personal choices in his life.  Period. 

I spent an entire year trying to get healthy enough to have a baby while he spent his entire year doing the same old things, not improving upon himself etc.  And that is all I will say here.  There is an issue that is not disclosed here.  But his infertility issues are his own fault. Period.

It is not because my egg’s are OLD.  To whomever that idiot was.  Plenty of woman at my age have children.  Period.  That’s an asinine statement.

It also doesn’t “need to be” someone’s fault.  But in this case it is.  It’s his.  It’s not random either.  He chose and it’s his fault.  Or rather I should say “it will be” when the results come back on his test showing poor.  We do not have that test back so in the interest of fairness I will not say that it’s 100% his fault yet.  The test results will tell the truth on their own.

This is not a product of my fucking physiology either. 

The fact is if you do certain things as a male you will be infertile.  Period.  This is not due to my old egg’s or my PCOS or my anything.  This IS unequivocally his fault.  Period.

When I state that I am angry about being denied “family” three times in my lifetime I am speaking of a healthy family all living under one roof, etc.  I know that I PERSONALLY have a family. I have a child.  Rick does not.  And if he never has children it is not the fault of old eggs.  If his test results come back poorly as we both suspect they will now…it will be his fault and ONLY his fault. 

Both of my doctors have given ME the go ahead to try.  However with NO healthy sperm, there will be no baby.  Period.  Why?  I’m not going to disclose the reason on my blog for personal reasons that have more to do with my existing child than protecting Rick or anyone else. But it’s not my fault, it’s not old eggs, it’s not PCOS…it’s the high likelihood of bad sperm.  Period.  And those bad sperm are Rick’s fault.