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I still haven’t bought a paper journal.  That is on my list of things to do over the 3 day weekend.  I have been mulling over whether I should be true to myself and write what I want to write here or just write it on paper.  Either way I’ve been too busy to even buy the journal.  Go figure.

I’ve been talking to “him” about my stress level the last two weeks.  Yes “he” and I are still friends much to Rick’s chagrin.  He now has a vitamin store (brick and mortar) and an online version in the works.  He asked me to call his employee John about my infertility etc.  John was a jerk in my opinion.  He told me that I needed to take a Yoga course and do meditation and relax.

Ok ok so I know that relaxation and a lack of stress is helpful when trying to conceive.  Let me get that out there.  But, PCOS is incurable and this guy tried to tell me different.  Vitamin C will cure it according to him.  Vitamin C, Super Cortisol and some DHEA formula along with something called NutraGrape and lecithin.  Now let me say, I’m a believer that vitamins and supplements are a good thing.  I always have been.  However, I also do not believe that they will make a baby happen.  I think it’s a combination.  This gentlemen also stated, “some couples are not in a place of balance that will allow a baby to come into their lives.”

This is the point at which I wanted to hang up.  I didn’t because of “him”. Him is my friend but this John guy is a jerk.

We are in our second cycle. I am currently on mense wait.  I’m ok though.  This is the easy part of the cycle.  This is the part where I take pills that have NO side affects that are nasty and this is the point where I take a hot bath every night and relax and remain calm.  It’s the nice part of the process.

I am trying to find ways to hopefully remain calm while taking the next round of Clomid which is doubled from last month.  I have no dillusions…I am just trying to find ways to relieve the pressure and stress.  However, the side affects of Clomid are worse than the word “awful” can describe.

I’m done with the horrible Business Law course and don’t have a grade yet.  I’m now taking what is meant to be the “last” course in my program.  So this course is easy peasy and I’m loving it. I’m done with my 2^nd week assignments and the first week isn’t even over yet.  Go me.   I am loving the sense of having a break without actually taking time off of school.  Some people recently asked me how much longer I have. However, I need 120 credits for my degree program, which is the Bachelor of Science in Management.  I am at 72 credits.  I am more than halfway there.  Which is a great feeling.  Every course I take is five weeks.  So I have 48 credits left and 48 times 5 is ….me graduating in March of 2009.  Sounds like a far way away, but it’s really not.  2007 is nearly over.  I’m also exploring CLEP testing and I’m down to electives and may double up a few times to get done sooner.

Also..Nokia doesn’t make cameras…I was thinking of Nikon.  I suppose I was whacked out when I wrote that last week.