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vintage memories….lasting cookie love

I grew up in the seventies….a baby of the the seventies. My great grandmother was Italian and she only spoke Italian. She was a big fluffy woman, stocky and stout and completely Italian thru and thru. She wore sturdy clothing and big burly shoes and a hankerchief in her hair….what we refer to as a babushka. She was a a proud “studda bubba”. Most people from the Pittsburgh area will know exactly what I mean, yet my great grandmother was not Polish….she was Italian. Studda Bubba means old ugly lady….and yet many people use that terminology to refer to an older Italian or Polish woman and the term was used often in an endearing manner.

She was amazing and yet I have only fragmented memories of her. She smelled like an old woman and yet on her it was this intensely amazing scent. She worked hard and she came to America and was an immigrant. She had an amazing home that if I could now replicate would make people insanely rich with happiness now. She had the old Singer sewing machine the old aluminum chairs, her home was fantastic but it has taken me 30+ years to figure this out entirely.

She passed away when I was 9 years old. I have flash images of memories associated with her. When her home was being dismantled years later my Mother asked me what I wanted from her home. I immediately recalled my most complete memory. My grandmother had a cookie jar sitting in her dining room on her Singer sewing machine. She spoke so little English and yet when she saw me and my siblings arrive she would always yell out “Yate a Cookie!…Yate a Cookie!” and direct us towards her cookie jar. That jar did not hold my grandmother certainly but her gesture and that memory somehow was enough for me to always embrace the intense fact that my grandmother loved us. My mother got that cookie jar and put it on my great grandmother’s hutch in her dining room. Now I have no idea what happened to either of those items since I have not spoken to my mother since I was 19.

The other day while scrolling through E-bay….I caught sight of this cookie jar and my heart broke…..and then it burst forth with so many happy childhood memories of my great grandmother in her studda bubba attire…yelling out “Kristeeeeena…Yate a cookie yate!” My grandmother was a big woman…with a smiling face…a smiling soul. I never knew her or much about her as she passed when I was 9. However….she impressed upon me something sweet and profound in her mere gestures…as she could not communicate via language.

Her’s was a language of sharing. Her’s was a language I still understood. Although I could not communicate with her I loved her. I loved her mere presence and image. I do recall her Italian and the way she spoke with my still living grandmother who spoke Italian fluently with her.

My cookie jar arrived today and I intend to buy lots of Stella D’oro cookies like grandma always had! I cannot eat anisette without getting homesick!

Check out my “Cookie Log”… (that’s whats written on it in red)

vintage 1970 era

I was quite pleased to realize after she arrived that she’s brown and red….and matches my tan/red kitchen theme. She even matches my granite countertops.  Something I had not even considered….it was totally an emotional purchase and now she totally fits in. Do people even keep cookie jar’s anymore? Do you have one?? What’s the story behind your cookie jar? Do you think someone will want it someday? Do you offer your grandkids, your visitors….cookies when they arrive at your house??

That’s my deceased father’s brass pepper mill too. Man…man oh man how I miss him. It can sometimes overcome me in intensity. He was an amazingly quirky and smart man. I recall many things and laugh inside often. That’s HIS actual pepper mill….he had one and lost it in the divorce..it was legendary…that argued over pepper mill. When he passed it was the only thing I wanted to salvage….only because it meant everything to him. I didn’t realize it would mean the world to me too.

Filed under : family, house, life
By shishnit
On May 29, 2009
At 8:51 pm
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rejection….

A few weekends ago I went to Target to waste time..check things out….and of course drop my normal $60 on something I didn’t need before I went in there.  Upon arriving I decided to get a soda and a pretzel for a quick snack, since their snack bar is uber cheap.

*As an aside to this normally scheduled blog post.  Does anyone else remember the snack bar that used to be at Hills, K-mart or some such store. (Hill’s stores are in the North..) where they had the tall chrome snack bar stools and food was served via a lunch tray?  I remember fondly going into some such store as a child and loving that snack bar.

After ordering my pretzel and drink I walked over to the self serve soda fountain and was filling up my cup.  Some woman that was sitting down commented to me about my hairstyle.  She said she loved it and that it was cut perfectly and the color was spot on.  I get this comment a lot. I cannot take credit for this commentary because it all goes to my hairdresser Becca.  I love Becca in a non physical way.  I have tried several times to take a photo of my hairstyle and it’s damn near impossible to do myself.  Perhaps one day I’ll ask Rick to take a picture of my hair.  Suffice it say it is not at all the reverse mullet that Kate Gosselin sports.

So…this woman compliments the hair, she has lovely hair too, we speak for awhile while I stand up 2 feet away from her at the soda machine and then I ended up sitting next to this woman who complimented my hair.  I then somehow ended up sitting there for 2+ hours chatting and bullshitting with this woman as though I knew her all my life.  She too had the “struggle with weight issues” and we specifically spoke about this to some length.  However, she had a high self esteem like me, and we chatted cheerfully about how other people perceive us, etc.  2+ hours I talked to this woman and for the life of me now I cannot recall her name, Laverne, Lorraine…it was a pretty L name of some type.  Towards the end of our delightfully unexpected connection she asked for my email address. I gave this woman my email address and my cellphone number.

It has been weeks and she has not called.

I want to know how she is.  Whatever happened with that man she was interested in.  If he accepted her date proposal. I want to know how she is.  Where she is??  You know you reach a certain age…your kids are grown and have their own friends and then outside of coworkers and long existing friendships..it’s darn near impossible to meet new friends unless you join some friend finder organization (ha! Do those exist?)  I rather liked this woman, we got along and laughed a lot.  So I want to know…..what’s going on in her world now. 

And more importantly I really want to know…

Why didn’t she call me?  Why didn’t she email…I mean emailing is non-threatening. What’s wrong with me?  

Filed under : friends, life, shit happens!
By shishnit
On May 28, 2009
At 6:09 pm
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cucumbers are horrible…my ass!!

I think it has been said before but women buy things that smell like cucumber….and yet men are surely not attracted to cucumbers are they? I believe she said it best and first. Ever since I read that blog post of hers (and it was ages ago) I’ve been more aware of my attraction to cucumber scented items. I love Bath & Body’s cucumber melon line…so yummy.

Today I had a big chuckle at the grocery store because I immediately picked up this product….JUST BECAUSE it had the word cucumber in it. And then on top of it “Cucumber White”*. Doesn’t that just sound refreshing? Like an internal bath for your esophagus? I mean it just sounds delicious. I fully expected the actual tea bag to smell delicious but the tea to taste like ass slime. (Now doesn’t THAT sound like the river of hell? Ass slime…grody!) Image Hosted by ImageShack.us I have to say…..its some pretty damned good stuff. I think it would make a killer iced tea too…with a few cucumber slices floating on top…..and a cucumber smelling man serving it from his cucumber…er…wait…I digress.  Also…the tea bag package color…the green/blue…I swear I’m taking that sucker to Lowe’s and having them color match it so I can paint something that color. Because why just buy things that smell and taste like cucumbers? Why not paint walls to remind you of cucumbers?

Do you know of any awesome cucumber products??? Please share…!!! I’m addicted.  And yah…last I checked…Rick wasn’t drooling over the cucumbers at the grocery store.

*the cucumber white tea has antioxidents in it…yah that’s WHY I bought it….uh…er….yah…..that’s why 

Filed under : life, humour
By shishnit
On May 27, 2009
At 1:01 am
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vacation over…

Tomorrow I head back to work…back to life….back to reality.  The sun is shining and it’s gorgeous outside.  Just as I suspected.

This was the vacation of rain….the vacation of re-evaluation…the vacation that will probably lead to many changes this year.

I also applied to nearly 1,000 jobs…or at least it feels like it.  I hate online application systems.  Really lame they are. 

Today was all about pork chops on the grill….clean floors and evacuating all the trash.  

Tonight…I’m curious to watch Jon & Kate + 8’s premiere.  It is much like watching a train wreck and it reminds me of all the commentary I used to get on my blogging activities in 2001.  Oh…so much has changed. I mean…look how boring my blog has become now.

I’m pretty much ready to go back to work tomorrow.  Just to have a reason to fix my hair again. haaaa!!!

Filed under : life
By shishnit
On May 25, 2009
At 11:35 pm
Comments : 2
 
 

I’m on vacation

Therefore our drougt ridden little city has had rain every single day since I’ve been off. I’m no meterologist and I don’t aspire to be one, but I predict that it will be bright and sunny starting ……NEXT TUESDAY!!

Filed under : life
By shishnit
On May 19, 2009
At 9:12 pm
Comments : 0