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Today I read this old blog entry And I almost cried. I really did want out of that marriage for a long time. I also wanted to go to college. I also thought having car insurance was an amazing and impossible to sustain thing!

Wow how life has changed.  I wanted my freedom. I wanted my education.  I am now in Graduate school. I am also now so very free to do whatever I want.  I’ve also had an insurance policy consistently since 2003 when it all finally ended.  2002 was a miserable year.  Oh but every year since…so vastly different.

I also blogged this gem on Feb. 1, 2002….

Ever since he got a CD player in his car, he’s walking around carrying my BT and Crystal Method and Flickerstick and Hoobastank CD’s. This pisses me off because he loses things constantly. And he never paid for them annnd because lets face it when a relationship gets this fucked up you just do not want that person touching any of your stuff.

We ended up divorced and I still have those CD jewel cases…EMPTY. I should just replace them already.

This entry from Feb 4, 2002

There’s tons of stuff in that house that no one ever touches. I have a dining room table covered with tools and bullshit of his. I haven’t sat at that table for over a year now. The dining room is full of junk that should be in a garage, but we don’t have one… I think that someday I’m going to look back at this nightmare and be so glad I’m no longer in it.

Dear Kristy of 2002…you have no idea just how amazing life will be in 7 years, just hang in there..it’s worth it.  You will be so glad you are no longer in it.  You will be so happy with your life..just hang on….TRUST ME!