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He’s kinda sorta ..no he IS my best friend and that’s been the biggest surprise of our relationship. I think he “knows” the most authentic me that there is.  In fact I’m positive of it. I have always second guessed my decisions in life but never the one concerning him.  I wanted him on day one and he still remains the best thing I ever did.  Today when making arrangements with his father we both stopped mid converation and said “yah teenagers are a pain in the behind because they “just don’t ever listen” to us…but he’s still great isn’t he?  We had a “shared child” moment.  It almost felt good.  I have made tons of mistakes in my lifetime…that kiddo is not one of them.  Never will be.  

Hey Keith….thanks for being such a great friend of mine.  Oh and thanks for always caring about what’s going on in my life and reading my silly little blog.  It matters to me…always has.  I normally write a long long sappy entry but I fear that if I try to do that today…I’ll lose ten gallons of tears.  17 years ago I had a little baby nuzzled up against my neck and his breathing was beautiful like the perfect melody.  I was terrified that I’d be some horrific mother like the one I had.  Thank be’jeezus that didn’t happen eh Keith? I didn’t count on him helping me grow up but he did.  He made me something so much better.

Happy 17th birthday Bucky!  Let me share a song with you.  I’ll always be there for you kiddo.  I love you endlessly.  I always dreamed about having a little boy.  Dreams come true.  Find your’s and don’t give up on it.

For you – Peter Bradley Adams

If your wandering ever leads you

to a place where you don’t know which road to choose

leave your worries behind

take the road that leads to mine

and I’ll be waiting there for you

If your dreaming ever wakes you

and you find your dreaming wasn’t true

wipe the sleep from your eyes

leave the nightmares behind

and I’ll dream a better dream for you

If your fortune ever fails you

and you’re down without a dime to see you through

there’s still luck that you can find

you have a piece of mine

yeah, I’ll make a wish for you

If your lover ever leaves you

and you find yourself with no one left to lose

you don’t have to be alone

take the road that leads you home

and I’ll be waiting there for you…

…I’ll be waiting there for you

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