I went to Keith’s myspace tonight. I miss him like madly. I’m afraid for him. I’m almost always afraid for him. Sometimes it has been months upon months when I haven’t seen him over the years…and then sometimes it’s just like I’m reliving memories trying to have a son.
Sometimes I feel so detached from that little boy that I always felt was so much like me that we had a bond.  Maybe I wanted only to believe so badly that we had a bond. Maybe in my heart he is my little boy but in his heart I’m really not his Mommy anymore.  I can never tell.Â
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Remember when I posted this Birthday post to Keith last November ?
Remember that song I sent his way?
I logged onto his myspace page tonight and that’s the song he has posted there.
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It is my biggest hope that when the rain is gone….the sun will still be there…that that bond I hope is there..really is.  That song being there…it made me cry. Where there is love there is always hope.
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Sending you lots of good thoughts and hugs and prayers for both you and Keith.